MARCH 11 (well almost!)

SO today was interesting. I stayed up until about 2 30 yesterday morning and was supposed to work at 12 30 (then found out it was actually 10 30!) but didn't even make it for then because I get a phone call at 6 30am (yes after only 4hrs of sleep!!) asking if I would come in because the other girl had called in and wouldn't make it to count in the tills, so I raced to work and did as many tills I could then she arrived at about 8 30 and helped finish them. I stayed till 12 and then came home. I actually wasn't going to sleep but after about 3 more hours I was so tired I could hardly see straight!! So I went to bed for a couple of hours and then went to church and then came home. So now I have eaten watched some tv and after I write this I will be heading off to bed.

Yet I have so much to say about what is going on in my head but do not know how to write all down. I have led such a blessed life, I have AMAZING friends and meet new ones ALL the time, and I have a GREAT job and things seem to be going alright but somewhere deep in my spirit I am feeling restless and tired. I feel like I need to be doing something else. I would LOVE to be doing all kinds of missions stuff, but who do I go with? What should or could I do? Where would the money come from? I feel like being where I am is not enough? What about the whole adopting from another country thing? (those of you who do not know this I will share it if you would like but not in my blog.) What about all the things my heart longs for? Where will it all come into play, if at all? I have had so many questions for so many years and why do I not seem to be finding the answer to them. Well this is enough for one night I have to go to bed now.