MARCH 31

Well sorry it has been awhile, I have had some crazy couple of weeks! Things seem to be running more smoothly now! I have been quite busy as usual, and this time it is not all that great as I am getting very tired. I wish that I didn't have to work sometimes, not that I do not enjoy my work but sometimes I wish that I could just be visiting and travelling around and still get paid for it. I am getting restless in the monotony of everything right now. I think I have mentioned that before, and it still is there. I thought that taking a little break a little while ago when I went to BC,it would help me go on for a while longer but it didn't. I want to be doing something more, like I want to be learning something new or going somewhere that is different or both. I don't know, I am pretty wiped right now. I am going to sign off for now but I will be back again.

MARCH 20

Well I have found another GREAT song if you like these types. It is written by Mark Schultz and is sooo sweet. I am going to write it out for you all because I do not have anything new, or exciting for that matter, to tell you! It is called Walking Her Home, and if you do not get at least a little teary in this I can no longer call you my friend!! (Just kidding!!)

Looking back, he sees it all, it was her first date the night he came to call. Her dad said son, have her home on time,and promise me you'll never leave her side. The way she laughed, the dress she wore, he'd never felt like this before.

CHORUS

He was walking her home, and holding her hand, oh the way she smiled it stole the breath right out of him. Down that old road with the stars up above, he remembers where he was the night he fell in love, He was walking her home.

Ten more years and a waiting room, at half past one, and the doctor said come in and meet your son. His knees went weak,when he saw his wife,she was smiling as she said he's got your eyes. And as she slept he held her tight, his mind went back to that first night.

He was walking her home, and holding her hand, oh the way she smile stole the breath right out of him. Down that old road, with the stars up abouve, he remembers where he was the night he fell in love, he was walking her home.

He walked her through the best days of her life, sixty years and he never left her side. A nursing home at eighty five, and the doctor said it could be her last night. And the nurse said oh, should we tell him now, or wait untill the morning to find out. But when they checked her room that night, he was laying by her side.

Oh he was walking her home, and holding her hand,oh the way she smiled when he said this is not the end, and just for awhile they were eighteen, and she was still more beautiful to him than anything.

He was walking her home, he was walking her home. looking back he sees it all, it was her first date the night he came to call....

That's it, I am in tears writing it. I LOVE it and if you ever get a chance to hear it oh my gosh it will melt you, (well some of you!!)Anyways that is it for now, good night all.

MARCH 11 (well almost!)

SO today was interesting. I stayed up until about 2 30 yesterday morning and was supposed to work at 12 30 (then found out it was actually 10 30!) but didn't even make it for then because I get a phone call at 6 30am (yes after only 4hrs of sleep!!) asking if I would come in because the other girl had called in and wouldn't make it to count in the tills, so I raced to work and did as many tills I could then she arrived at about 8 30 and helped finish them. I stayed till 12 and then came home. I actually wasn't going to sleep but after about 3 more hours I was so tired I could hardly see straight!! So I went to bed for a couple of hours and then went to church and then came home. So now I have eaten watched some tv and after I write this I will be heading off to bed.

Yet I have so much to say about what is going on in my head but do not know how to write all down. I have led such a blessed life, I have AMAZING friends and meet new ones ALL the time, and I have a GREAT job and things seem to be going alright but somewhere deep in my spirit I am feeling restless and tired. I feel like I need to be doing something else. I would LOVE to be doing all kinds of missions stuff, but who do I go with? What should or could I do? Where would the money come from? I feel like being where I am is not enough? What about the whole adopting from another country thing? (those of you who do not know this I will share it if you would like but not in my blog.) What about all the things my heart longs for? Where will it all come into play, if at all? I have had so many questions for so many years and why do I not seem to be finding the answer to them. Well this is enough for one night I have to go to bed now.

MARCH 6

HONEY I'M HHHOOOOOMMMMMEEEE!!!! For those of you who do not know I have just returned from visiting a friend and some relatives in BC. It was sooo BEAUTIFUL there, even though it was rainy a couple of days. Today we spent out a lot and it was +17. And to return to Edmonton at -8 (though not as cold as it has been) is still cold!! Anyways....I had a great time and got to see a Brian Doerksen concert and got see Debbie Fortnum sing with him on one of his songs which was really beautiful and I got to talk to her afterward and that was so fun too. She is sooo personable the 2 times that I have talked to her I have felt like I have known her my whole life!! I LOVE peopl like that. Anyways it was fun, and we got to go to the aquarium in Vancouver and that was REALLY neat. I could have spent HOURS there. So who's up to coming to BC with me on a road trip? Any takers? How about either in the summer or the fall? Just let me know, I would LOVE to go back to visit. Plus I tried Bubble Tea!! BARF! It is really quite gross. It is a flavored drink and I didn't know weather to chew the little slime balls or swallow them but they were NASTY!!! Just FYI for any of you who have never tried it, quite the experience! Well need to sign off for tonight too, good night