JANUARY 30

So it is already almost Wednesday, and this past weekend was Breakforth. It was soooo AMAZING!! I got to see Casting Crowns, Newsboys, and got to say hello to Geoff Moore. I was at the Compassion boot ALL weekend and LOVED it! I was soooo EXTREMELY tired by the end, but because of Compassion and how much I LOVE them and the people it was well worth it to be tired. My next big event is Missions Fest and that is really cool because I get to be in charge of the booth this year!! (They are trusting me with that, omigosh!!) I am a little nervous but I feel that I will do well because for the most part I do know how things are run and feel like I will do a good job. Anyways, by the end of the Breakforth weekend, our final count of kids to be sponsored was 1030!!! Some of those were ones that have yet to be paid for but I feel that we will be really close to that as our final, final count.

I always have these great ideas of who I want to be and what I want to do, for the past little while I have been thinking about beign some type of promoter or agent type person for people that I know musically but, for 1 I am not musically talented (really) in any way. I LOVE to sing, but am not really good at it, and I really LOVE a lot of musical styles but can not play any type of instrument. Though I have played a few in the past, recorder, hand bells, piano (not very long) and alto sax (for a year). I absolutly LOVED what I did but I just moved around to much and was not diciplined enough in my younger years to stick with it in the different places that I was moved to. The reason is that I have met a lot of people that I ABSOLUTLY lOVE and wish that I could get them in places and set up things for them when they come to town. Kind of like Breakforth. Maybe I will just have to see if I can become a part of that. Anyways, I ende up sponsoring another little girl while at the booth this year I will have to post a picture when I can. She is soooo sweet, I call her my little winnie the pooh. She is only 3 but absolutly BEYOND the cutest thing you have ever seen. Well I should sign off for th night, have a great week one and all.

JANUARY 21

So last night was Inventory nivght at Costco. Can I just tell you how unbelievably BORING that is. We all had to count every single item in the store!! Even for me who does not mind at times do things that are monotonous for a while, was starting to go insane!! So it was alright though and obviously I made it through, I left there at 12 15am. Then at about 10 after 6 this morning I get a call from Costco saying that this other girl had called in sick and so I had to go open the vault this morning, much to my disappointment. Having to miss ALL my church services for the weekend!! Well I am sure that next weekend will more than make up for it!! Plus I get something like double time and a half or triple time (I can't remember) because it was less than 8 hours between shifts!! Plus my 4$ an hour more on sundays!! So just this day makes up for the tiredness that I will be feeling soon!! So I think that I want to go to a movie this afternoon too, I have to open the vault tomorrow and tuesday but that will be alright I think because I am prepared to do it, it is not a last minute deal. Then I just have to make it through wednesday and thursday and I will be off to BREAKFORTH!!! YAHOO!!! I think I may have to go lay down for awhile but hopefully not to long as I do have to sleep tonight too. See ya!!

JANUARY 13

So my friends I am in a bit of a pickle....I guess for some people it is not a problem but for me I am (after an entire life of being this way) frustraded with the fact that I am not a good speaker and would LOVE to be able to be better at that. Look I am not even very good at articulating that when writing... though articulating is a good word hey!?! Anyways, I want to be able to be bolder ( is that a word?), more bold in who I am and how I communicate with others. I get really frustrated when I can fully explain to people what I would like to. I am not confident in myself at all, I don't feel, and even with the people I amost comfortable with am just now learning to be confident in what I want to say to them and just talk. I have even had a couple of dreams where I have been a public speaker and in the dreams I do good and I speak well and all, but even day to day converstaions do not go well for me and I think that maybe why some people think of me as shy because I do not talk all that much but, I do not feel that I am shy I just usually do not have anything bold or profound to say and therefore just listen in on most conversations and debates. Even when I feel that I would like to share I do not because of the intimidation factor usually with the people I am with and so keep quiet yet again. So like I said I am having such issues with that, I would LOVE to be on stage introducing people or being able to do a Compassion plea, ( that one may come just for the simple fact that I am so passionate about it.) But honestly I would LOVE to be able to get in front of a crowd of hundres or even thousands of people and be able to speak up on behalf of people or things I strongly belive in. Okay I am done now, I have said my piece and maybe that is why I enjoy writing instead of talking but I LOVE to listen too, and feel I am good listener but do not believe that I can help if you need encouragement. Okay now I am really done and am going to bed......

JANUARY 11

So I started writing todays blog earlier and the system shut down on me and I was just about done and it was long!! That makes me a little frustrated as well cause I do not remember all that I wrote either!!

Well Breakforth is in 2 weeks and I am SOOOO very excited about it. This will be my 3rd year there and I have had such cool things happen to me. The first year I was there, well there are a few stories from that year, but last year guess what happened. I was at the Compassion booth and was talking to a lady that was from Nanton (a little town close to the town where I grew up) and so started talking to her and that was fun and she said that she was going to be coming back with her sister to sign up for a child. That was cool so when they returned I recognized the sister, but I have been so many places and have seen and met sooo many people that I had to ask her what her name was. She told me and get this... she was my grade 2 teacher!! I just about died, it was really cool though because she was one of my most favorite teachers and the fact that she was at breakforth was even cooler. She did not even look like she had changed a bit. It was really neat so I am hoping that she will be back this year and I will get to see her again. So I am excited to see what God is planning for me this year I LOVE to be surprised like that and so am excited about this year.

I have recently heard a lady sing, named Debbie Fortnum.... I REALLY like her and know that she was at breakforth last year, I am hoping that she will be there again this year as I know that she has recorded a song with Brian Doerksen on his new CD and I am hoping that she will be there to sing it with him.

Well this one is pretty long, so I think I should go now. Other than Breakforth nothing too exciting in my life, I am still working hard but they have cut my hours back as it is getting to be slow, so I may see what I can do about picking up something else part time, I don't know though we'll see.

JANUARY 8

Well, another Monday and I am glad that I do not have to work. I am right now watching Legends of the Fall. Seen it? It is so sad, I can hardly see to write this between tears. It is almost over so that is good for me. Anyways, not much going for today I am meeting up with a friend and we are going to go for coffee and hang out a bit I am excited about that, I always LOVE going for coffee and talking with and just hanging out with my friends. God has really blessed me with some amazing people in my life. I do not know why I have such wonderful friends but I am very glad I do and I intend on keeping them for a very long time and hopefully into eternity!!

Well it is late at night when I am now completeing this, I have had a really good day and such a wonderful talk with a friend on the phone tonight, nothing really serious but just to talk and laugh was so good. I need that every once in a while especially from this frien as she can make me laugh like no one else. Well I have another full day tomorrow so I need to sign off for now, good night....

JANUARY 2

Well, for most of you it is back to the old grind hey? I have been working this whole time except Christmas day and New years Day, so I feel like there really wasn't a holiday. That is okay though.... I just got over having I am sure what was the 24 hour flu. I got it at about 11 30 New years eve was sick all day yesterday and feel fine now. So how was everyone else's Chritmas and New year? Anyone going to Breakforth? I am soooooo excited for it, Casting Crowns are going to be there and I am so looking forward to that concert!!! I have a friend that is supposed to be coming up to stay with me that weekend and go too, I am very excited about that as well. I don't have anything really exciting to tell right now but other than being sick I have been keeping busy with church and work and friends so that is fun. I am working really hard in order to pay off all my debt's so that is hard but exciting to think that there will be a day that I will be debt free (hopefully before I am 30!, that is not to far away!) ANYWAYS =Þ like I said nothing to exciting yet!!! But wait for a couple of days and I am sur something will come up!!! signing off for now......